To U

There are memories you hold on to, things you may have lost and loved. They stay in your head and some of those memories turn in to your greatest fantasies. 

I lost your love a year ago, but my memories of you still linger. From the moment i met you in the lobby,the white rose, that moment you said yes, the first kiss, our first sleep over, the letters, each and every moment you smiled and held my hand. I keep them, even your goodbye.

You told me that i deserved the best, to be happy. But to tell you the truth, i was happy and i never felt like i needed the best when i had something better. I had you.   

The distance may have ruined us, and i may never get you back. I just hope you know that i would always love you and you would always be the greatest memory/ fantasy for me.

25 Years of a Selfish Photo Guy

I take pictures. A lot of pictures.

I just turned 25 and i am thankful for everything and everyone who stayed with me through my shit phase and depressing state.

Again I take pictures. Let me tell you why....

I love people. I love observing them interact, have conversations, laugh, cry, and see their emotions. i dont mind if you don't talk to me, i'd be happy just to be there, to see people. to capture your moment. by the way I'm a ninja.

I am selfish. I take pictures not to show you. I take pictures because i forget and i know that i will forget.

That is my fear. To Forget.

I've seen it. People forgetting loved ones. I don't want to forget. Memories are important to me.
With every click of my old camera, i wouldn't forget. So if i capture you, please don't be mad.
It's my way of saying I Value You. Through good photos or bad, i would treasure you.

People come on and go, but your memories would stay with me...  take a glimpse... here are some of you... Family.... Friends... I say Thank you. Thank you for making life interesting. For being subjects to what i see.


25 years and i am Half Way 50, It's ok... I'm Older, I am Happier.

Ze Friend zone ( the experience of le boy who got really lost)

so they say there are many guys stuck in the "friendzone"..... I have experienced being the friend,i am not saying i'm an expert but believe me i've been a friend or THE FRIEND for sooooo many girls. But i guess we really just have to wait for the right time and for the right girl.

it is now that i realize, i am happy that i got rejected in the past, why? i learned my lesson not to push yourself to anyone who doesn't like/love you, like what other people say, Love works both ways, if it is just you then that ain't love...when i look at my past, it has always been about so many rejections from different girls, i was a sad person back then thinking there'd be no girl who could possibly love me...

before i graduated from college i met stef, check my other post to know our story... anyway, she came in my life where i badly needed a change, a huge change...and there she was, just smiling when we first met... she was that girl whom i know i would not try hurt... she didn't put me in the friendzone, she loved me like i meant the world to her.... the loved...its just a really good feeling :)

*on other note, it's just sad, back then you treat girls like a princess and now those other girls who have rejected you are treated by other men like a nobody...deym O_o

1,10,11,12

-1-

Yesterday marked our 1 year of knowing each other, i think and believe that it is very important that you keep this day in mind (Always).....I think you guys know the story already, that day where i teased her with every guy/woman that passes by the registration booth...yada yada....anyway if you dont know the story please check my other entries, its in there......

-10-

10 months, since she said yes....another important day....and a day filled with surprises....had a game of basketball, right after i went to her house to pick her up for our "date"....we passed by this barangay hall, and she was surprised that people were singing at her back, when she turned around, UP Ictus serenaded (a First) her with "Baby" by JB and "Better Together" by Jack johnson.....after that we went to MOA and watched Chronicle ( hmmmm first movie that we watched for this year that didn't suck) hehehehe by the way, we watched this on Director Cut cinema(another first), which only housed a few people, by a few i mean really just few...we went home after

-11-

Date when she said yes....with crap :))))

-12-

Adspeak 12, did i mention we met in this event? important event for us both....i went to school the other day...just to give her white roses....awhile ago she asked me why i still give her white roses, here's why my love......there are many flowers out there, there are flowers much prettier than a rose, but a rose is special (excelance remember?) and i had to give it to you again...this time the petals are complete.... :))

I Love You my Honey Munchkin Piggy Labidabs ;))

Oi, walang iyakan ah!

A Happy Photo of friends (kahit kulang), where everyone is smiling and just being crazy.... A photo of a person going away...not a dying friend but someone who's going away to another place...well obviously not heaven but to another country....

gawd i feel shitty when someone leaves, i guess di parin ako sanay...marami nang nagpaalam na sila'y aalis, pero bat ganun? ampupu lang ng pakiramdam na aalis ang kaibigan mo/ o ang mga kaibigan mo...

Di ako dapat malungkot dahil makakabuti yun sa kanya, pero siguro nakakalungkot lang isipin na kahit na may mga paraan kung san pwede mo pa syang makausap eh mamimiss mo yung mga pagkakataon na kayo'y nagkikita kita, nagaasaran at kantiyawan.... yung mga tipong kulang ang grupo dahil mawawalan ng isang taong maputi (ubod ng puti).... hindi ito permanente at alam kong babalik ka... pero sana malaman mo lang na kahit gano kalayo man ang puntahan mo siguradong may babalikan kang mga kaibigan dito, na mayayaya mong uminom ( ng kape man o beer) mga kaibigan na pwede mong laitin (joke, wag) (seryoso wag), mga kaibigan na magpapasaya sayo at magpapakabag sa tiyan mo kakatawa at mga kaibigan mo na dadamayan ka sa kahit anong problema.... Sats, walang paalam, alam naming babalik.... kaya cheers! ingat sa byahe!

Hmmm, How true? anybody?

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun.. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word.. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything.. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget. The one and only.

Music, Happenings and Everything around me

uhmmm so....alot of people say they can't live without music...well...for how many months now i've been living without it[i think]... and the only music i have heard was the ringback from one of our resource person...and hey try calling my phone, i also have her ringback...eerrrr hate it....

anyway, i borrowed my sisters' nano again, and every song that i put in her ipod was still there... flashbacks came back again...heavy feelings....sad ones.... it actually reminded me how sad i was before... flirting with one woman to another...and getting my heart broken over and over... was such a sad boy...i guess that changed the moment i met the person im with right now...stef... i stopped listening to music, day by day those times i've spent with her i became happier....

i was checking my phone awhile ago, saw this "Tu Risa" i forgot what it was...googled it....its by pablo neruda....silly me because i forgot i saved it on my phone because it reminded me of stef....

Quítame el pan, si quieres, quítame el aire, pero no me quites tu risa

Take the bread from me, if you want take the air from me, but do not take from me your laughter

No me quites la rosa, la lanza que desgranas, el agua que de pronto estalla en tu alegría, la repentina ola de plata que te nace.

Do not take away the rose, the lanceflower that you pluck, the water that suddenly bursts forth in your joy, the sudden wave of silver born in you.

Mi lucha es dura y vuelvo con los ojos cansados a veces de haber visto la tierra que no cambia, pero al entrar tu risa sube al cielo buscándome y abre para mí todas las puertas de la vida.

My struggle is harsh and I come back with eyes tired at times from having seen the unchanging earth, but when your laughter enters it rises to the sky seeking me and it opens for me all the doors of life.

Amor mío, en la hora más oscura desgrana tu risa, y si de pronto ves que mi sangre mancha las piedras de la calle, ríe, porque tu risa será para mis manos como una espada fresca.

My love, in the darkest hour your laughter opens, and if suddenly you see my blood staining the stones of the street, laugh, because your laughter will be for my hands like a fresh sword.

Junto al mar en otoño, tu risa debe alzar su cascada de espuma, y en primavera, amor, quiero tu risa como la flor que yo esperaba, la flor azul, la rosa de mi patria sonora.

Next to the sea in the autumn, your laughter must raise its foamy cascade, and in the spring, love, I want your laughter like the flower I was waiting for, the blue flower, the rose of my echoing country.

Ríete de la noche, del día, de la luna, ríete de las calles torcidas de la isla, ríete de este torpe muchacho que te quiere, pero cuando yo abro los ojos y los cierro, cuando mis pasos van, cuando vuelven mis pasos, niégame el pan, el aire, la luz, la primavera, pero tu risa nunca porque me moriría.

Laugh at the night, at the day, at the moon, laugh at the twisted streets of the island, laugh at this clumsy boy who loves you, but when I open my eyes and close them, when my steps go, when my steps return, deny me bread, air, light, spring, but never your laughter for I would die.

She is my Happiness...Every time i'm down...every time i think everything would fall apart...she has always reminded me i can do something Today and if today isn't enough, there's always tomorrow...and that everything would be ok....